I'm back - what an insane couple of weeks. Thanks to everyone who shared thoughts and prayers - it was appreciated, even if I haven't been in the frame of mind to say so. We're starting to get back to normal, or at least a semblance thereof. I don't think that we'll ever quite be the same after this. Two weeks ago I had one of the worst experiences of my life, and I suppose that what's starting to happen is that I'm adapting my perception of normal.
Well, anyway - enough about that. We still have questions that need to be answered; we don't even know the baby's gender yet. Hopefully we'll have those in the next few weeks and gain at least some sense of closure around this whole mess. It's been utterly surreal - two weeks ago we were still trying to decide on names.
Scott,
I'm so so sorry to hear about your loss. I, too, am a dad, mid-thirties, Chicago. I have two little girls. I don't want to pretend I know what you are going through. Still, I almost lost my wife between Thanksgiving and Christmas. There, I learned the absolute opposite or fulfillment of theopraxis depending how you look at it - in the silence (of God?), able to do nothing.
I stumbled across your blog. I am a theology/ethics PhD student in Chicago. I was just thinking about blogging again.
Anyway, I sit in the silence of loss with you. Forgive my intrusion of words.
Matt
